Full-Time Training - Testimonies

I Am the Lord's, Kristopher Kimmell

Growing up in a Christian home, I was very familiar with God from a young age. By age five I could recite the Lord's prayer and I would compose “letters” to my grandfather who had died and was now in heaven. As I grew so also did my knowledge of God. Eventually I believed into Him as my Savior.

By the time I reached college, not only was God as my Savior a fact to me, but also the wonderful Person of Christ who was becoming experiential to me. Thus in college I was continually growing in the knowledge and experience of the Lord Jesus--He was my living water, my bread of life, my rest, my real Friend, my Sympathizer in times of trouble, my love, and so many other marvelous realities.

Yet one thing bothered me, even though Christ was so much to me: was I His? Verses like Romans 14:8 which says that we are the Lord's, and 2 Corinthians 5:15 which says that we live to the Lord and not to ourselves, would always pierce me. I realized that I lived to myself--always firmly in control and never letting go and letting God have His way. As I graduated from college, though I had the aspiration to go on to medical school, I sensed a need to know the Lord in a deeper way so I could appreciate Him and give my life over to Him.

Eventually I came to the Full-Time Training, and here I learned the testimony of two men--Watchman Nee and Witness Lee. Their devotion to the Lord as faithful slaves left an indelible impression on me. I was especially touched as I read Watchman Nee's testimony about how he wrestled with the Lord over his very salvation because he knew that if he received the Lord it would mean his life was no longer his own. Watchman Nee did receive the Lord, and after receiving Christ as his life, he living was a reflection of the realization he had on the night he was saved. He served the Lord with abandon until the day he died.

As I read Nee's testimony, I was motivated to make the same decision and yield my whole life to the Lord. By spending two years in the Full-Time Training, I have attained a deeper knowledge of the Lord, a greater appreciation of Him, and now I can say with boldness that I am the Lord's!

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